My Next Round of Favorite Music: Happy Rhodes

Happy Rhodes

People occasionally ask me why I m ake lists of my favorite songs by particular artists. It’s not because I think it’s particularly interesting to anyone but me, although I do hope that someone might stumble across something they’ve never heard before, and enjoy a new song or artist. The first list I did was for Canadian singer/songwriter/rock goddess Emm Gryner. I had been listening to Emm’s music for about 20 years after discovering her through a Happy Rhodes e-mail discussion group called Ecto, and she had released quite a few album. Emm is so prolific, and I am such a bad music listener (I rarely take the time to sit and just listen to music so I can learn titles and remember individual songs) I decided to go through Emm’s entire catalog and note my favorite songs. I enjoyed that process so much, listening to songs over and over to get them in just the right order, that I decided to replicate the process with two of my favorite bands, Fleetwood Mac and Heart.

Happy RhodesAt some point I realized that I was working my way toward the list of my favorite Kate Bush songs, which made me think about Happy Rhodes. Like Emm, Happy was quite prolific and had a major body of work. In addition, I discovered her just as she was releasing her sixth album, so once I fell in love with her music, I went back and bought her first five albums, all while she continued to release new music. Again, because of my poor music listening habits, I knew there were a handful of songs I really loved and could name if someone asked me, the rest of her music kind of blended together for me as music by an artists whose work I really admired. This was the perfect opportunity to really dig into Rhodes’ twelve albums and listen to each song carefully and multiple times to rank all of her music.

It took me weeks. Even now, as I am embarking on finally writing my list to the public, i suspect I may make a tweak or two as I go along. This was by far the most difficult list to rank to date. Happy’s music is so diverse and varied that I kept moving things around. Of the 120 plus songs I have ranked, I’m pretty confident with the first 75, as songs worthy of attention that I was able to rank. The remaining 45 didn’t stand out to me, so they are rather shoddily ranked. I’m going to focus on my Top 40 Happy Rhodes songs, with just a mention of some of the songs that didn’t make that cut.

Another reason why I was excited to write about Happy Rhodes, is that so very few people have heard her, or even heard OF her. Of the half a dozen people who may read my blog, I’m hoping that one or two may discover a new, incredible talent through this list of favorite Happy Rhodes songs, and of the other few, they already love Happy and we can compare our favorites. Since so few people know about Happy Rhodes, I will start with a brief summary of her musical career.

Happy Rhodes performing with her latest band, a Peter Gabriel appreciation combo, The Security Project.

Born Kimberley Rhodes, she was called “Happy” since infancy, and legally changed her name when she was 16. She was born in Poughkeepsie, NY and spent most of her life in upstate New York. She started out creating music after receiving an acoustic guitar as a gift form her mother at age 11. At age 14 she was performing her own songs at school talent shows, and after dropping out of high school at age 16, and getting her GED, she began her dream of performing by appearing at “Open Mic” nights in the Saratoga, NY area. Happy soon met the owner of a recording studio, Cathedral Sound Studios in Rensselaer, and became a studio intern to learn recording techniques. The studio owner was impressed with Rhodes’ voice and songwriting, and volunteered to record all of the songs she had written to that point.

Rhodes ISoon after, Happy met Kevin Bartlett, a musician who had his own recording label, Aural Gratification, and he released all the songs that she had recorded to date on cassette. She had enough songs to release three cassettes at the same time in 1986, Rhodes Vol. IRhodes Vol. II, and Rearmament, followed one year later by a fourth cassette release, Ecto. These first four albums all featured Happy on all instruments, with the first two largely just acoustic guitar and voice, and the latter two adding in electronic keyboards. These releases weren’t conceived as albums, but just collections of her previously written songs.

With the release of her fourth album, Warpaint, Happy was writing new songs, and adding in guest musicians. There was a notable maturing of her songwriting skills as she began to stretch her musicianship and her songwriting to the glorious heights I have come to love her for. She released four more albums on Aural Gratification in fairly quick succession, Equipoise, Rhodesongs, Building the Colossus and The Keep, before moving to another label to release her 10th album a few years later in 1998, Many Worlds Are Born Tonight. Her last album to date, Find Me, was recorded in 2001, but not released until 2007. Recently, a compilation of her early works from the first four albums was released on CD and vinyl on an album called Ectotrophia.

In my next entry I will start to count down my Top 40 songs by Happy Rhodes, but there were so many songs I wanted to fit into my Top 40, that as a preview, here are ten more songs that I just couldn’t leave off. I’ve linked them to their audio/video so go take a listen if you are so moved, and know that there are many more amazing songs to come! And a note for those who don’t know Happy… all the voices you hear are Happy’s, believe it or not.

50.) The Chosen One – Find Me (2007) – From Happy’s final studio release, this is a lovely song about someone who feels left behind as others around her are pairing off in marriage… about buying into the fairy tale and just feeling lonely. Not my favorite lyrically, but it’s a lovely song, and in addition to the link of the recording in the title, here’s a lovely live version.

49.) The Wretches Gone AwryRhodes I (1986) – A perfect example Happy’s early work; a simple, gently galloping acoustic guitar finger-picking its way through an enchanted world with Happy’s multiple angelic voices weaving and diving, and singing about the glories and the failings of humanity, and choosing to focus on the good.

48.) Suicide Song – Rhodes I (1986) – Also from Happy’s first release, she wrote this when she was very young, and this was the first song she ever recorded, probably on a portable cassette player. It’s a heart-breaking song that is about exactly what the title states. In addition to the original audio linked in the title, here’s a live version from a concert she performed in 2005.

47.) DyingBuilding the Colossus (1994) – Jump forward a decade or so and Happy’s considerably expanded her production level. This lush song isn’t really about death, but about isolation, and fear of showing your heart to the world, and worse, being ignored by someone you love. I love who this song has multiple tempos and styles, something you will see a lot in Happy’s songs. Happy said in an interview that Building the Colossus is her least favorite album. Ironically, I think it’s my favorite.

46.) If Love is a Game, I Win – Ecto (1987) – Heavy synths drive this song that nicely showcases both of Happy’s vocal ranges in a looping melody and storyline about being thoroughly happy in love. Incidentally, Ecto was the last of Happy’s albums that I owned. I thought I had them all, and as I was preparing for this series of posts, I realized that I didn’t have this one, so I quickly dowloaded it I knew many of the songs from various compilations, but I was shocked that I didn’t already own it! Now, my collection is complete.

45.) The Flaming ThresholdRhodes I (1986) – Another in the vein of Wretches, solo acoustic guitar and Happy using her voice like the instrument it is. I like how Happy pushes her voice a bit on the verses, giving it a little bit of an edge. This one’s about desire, risk and the rush of performance — you reach out, sometimes you’re going to get burned. It’s an interesting point of view told from a performer and looking at the desire in their fans’ eyes and choosing to reach out directly to them. Surprisingly, this one, like Suicide Song were bonus tracks added to Rhodes I when it was released on CD.

44.) Charlie – Find Me (2007) – And here’s the first of the dark rockers that I like to think of as a little bit like juggernauts. They have a heavy power the propels them inexorably forward. This one is taken from her last album, and combines her deep register with some electronically distorted shrieks to tell the story of a disturbed, hopeless man who killed himself, and how the singer could have just as easily been in his position, as could all of us. Happy often writes about literary and film characters, so I don’t know if Charlie is one of those, or completely comes from Happy’s imagination.

43.) Wrong Century – Warpaint (1991) – Happy definitely mines science fiction themes i her songs, and again, whether Wrong Century is based on another work or just Happy’s own imagination, she paints the picture of a man trapped in a woman’s body in another time period than their own. What’s notable about this song is the dramatic duet with Mitch Elrod in the chorus. Their songs blend together really well and make for quite the powerful moment.

42.) If So – Ecto (1987) – In this song, the singer has been horribly hurt by someone she loves. She asks what they did was worth it, and to tell her the truth, and if it’s true, then it’s over between them. Happy’s vocals are deceptively gentle, making the tone of the song much more chilling. The live clip below was taken from a 1996 concert at the Tin Angel in Philadelphia.

41.) I Say – Equipoise (1993) – My first experience with Ms. Rhodes came when I purchased Equipoise. I’m very glad my first impressions of her were during this period, when she was experimenting with more lush, expansive production, combining her gentle acoustic work with more electronic sounds. This album closer is a gentle ode to claiming one’s own identity and cautioning others not to rely on the words of others to define them. It’s another complex song where Happy creates multiple sections that all have a different feel, while maintaining the themes and gentle momentum of the song as a whole.

Before closing, I need to thank Vickie Williams, Happy’s greatest evangelist, without whom it is doubtful that I would have ever heard of her. Many of the audio and video clips linked here from YouTube are courtesy of Vickie and her husband. Thanks for bringing some Happy into my life, Vickie!

Best Movies of 2020 – The Top 10!

So many great movies were released in 2020 that I had to create a Top 40! I already posted #’s 21 – 40, and #’s 11 – 20. Now we get to my Top 10 films of 2020!

And Then We Danced#1 – AND THEN WE DANCED – I’m very hard on my gay, coming-of-age films, but writer/director Levan Akin’s powerful story of Merab, a young man in conservative Georgia, who has been training for years for a spot in the National Georgian Ensemble. When a new male dancer arrives Merab starts to see a whole know way of living. There are so many reasons why AND THEN WE DANCED is an outstanding film, from the sensitive and passionate screenplay, to the artful direction and cinematography, but much of the success lies in the hands of the young lead actor Levan Gelbakhiani, a dancer by training, whose every emotion washes over his open, beautiful face so transparently that your heart is always with him. And while this is a gay coming-of-age story there is so much more going on in this film, from Merab’s challenging home life, the rigors of his dance training, but central to it all, that rush of first love and first heartbreak. This one took me by surprise in so many ways, and has stayed with me strongly.

Light from Light#2 – LIGHT FROM LIGHT – While Paul Harrill’s lovely film is sort of marketed as a paranormal investigation story (and it is that) it’s more about a pair of folks who are haunted by their own circumstances and how they are able to help each other. As a child, Shelia had a couple of visions that came true, and from there she went on to investigate paranmoral occurrences. A widower whose wife died under unusual circumstances hires Shelia to see if his wife’s spirit is still lingering in the house they shared. This is a truly slow burn, but once it’s got its hook in you, you’ll be glad you’re dragged along. The power of these quiet scenes took me by surprise, and the acting by Marin Ireland and Jim Gaffigan is just gorgeous. Josh Wiggins does great as well, as Shelia’s son, who is struggling with some big decisions that are colored by his mom’s history. Lovely cinematography in the Appalachians, and through the potentially haunted house cap things off beautifully. A powerfully and unexpectedly moving film.

Never Rarely Sometimes Always#3 – NEVER RARELY SOMETIMES ALWAYS – Eliza Hittman follows-up the impressive BEACH RATS with a somber character study about a young woman from Pennsylvania who travels to New York City with her cousin to get an abortion. Things don’t go quite as planned, and the pair end up having to stay longer than expected, with no money to afford them a place to stay. Hittman found her lead actress in fist-timer Sidney Flanigan and effectively uses tight close-ups where the gifted young woman conveys her doubts and anguish through facial expressions alone. The sequence where the film’s title is explained took my breath away. Eliza Hittman is clearly a director to keep an eye on.

Portrait of a Lady on Fire#4 – PORTRAIT OF A LADY ON FIRE – It’s so rare in a film to actually watch two people fall in love. It doesn’t happen set to a sweeping score, or in a delightfully sweet montage. It doesn’t happen all at once, with locked eyes, or a catching of breath. It happens slowly, over time, starting perhaps with admiration, then intrigue, perhaps desire, and slowly, that first blush of love. Céline Sciamma, already notable for her films WATER LILLIES and GIRLHOOD, creates an exquisite portrait herself, of a female painter in late eighteenth century Brittany, who is hired to paint the wedding portrait of a very unhappy… and unwilling young woman. As the painter paints, she peers, she gazes, she examines her subject, and in doing so, becomes the object of her subjects gaze as well. Stunningly beautiful, intensely engaging, a technical marvel, Sciamma’s PORTRAIT is a work of art.

Sound of Metal#5 – SOUND OF METAL – I went into this film knowing nothing… in fact, I went into it with misinformation. I assumed, from the photo I saw, that it was a documentary about a heavy metal drummer who develops tinnitus. Instead, this stunning narrative follows the difficult path of a young man, a recovering addict involved in a slightly co-dependent relationship with a woman with whom her performs in a quasi-punk, quasi-art due, who damages his hearing to the point of deafness. Featuring a bravura performance by rising star Riz Ahmend, this drummer is entirely focused on a cure, while the community around him works tirelessly to help him to accept his lack of hearing and to adjust to a new way of living. First time director Darius Marder has created s powerful exploration of a man facing a challenge that shakes him to his core identity, and follows him through the arduous journey he must take to adapt.

Sorry We Missed You#6 – SORRY WE MISSED YOU – Ken Loach tackles serious subject, and often his characters are struggling, working-class folk. In this film, he focuses on a family who’s just barely getting by in London: Ricky (Dad) drives a delivery van (think Amazon), Abbie (Mom) does home health care with horrible hours, Seb is technically in high school, but he’d rather be out spray painting some graffiti, and Liza Jae is the youngest, trying desperately to keep everyone happy. Despite best intentions and potential opportunities, things the Proctor family just can’t catch a break, and things just get worse and worse. Arguments turn into fights, things are done that can’t be taken back, but the incredible power of this film is through it all, Loach shows us by the actions of his characters that there is deep, familial love here, despite everything. It’s a tough film that broke my heart.

First Cow#7 – FIRST COW – Kelly Reichardt returns to an historic era, this time the 1800’s and the Westward Expansion, to tell a tale of friendship and early entrepreneurship during a rough and tumble time. An out of work cook helps a fugitive Chinaman, forging a quiet friendship then dreaming of what they could do to become successful in a frontier settlement. A number of things come together, the chef’s baking skills, the lack of interesting bread and sweets on the frontier, and the introduction of the first cow in the area, owned by a wealthy landowner who needed some cream for his afternoon tea. Reichardt has evolved into one of my favorite filmmakers, and her attention to detail, her skills with portraying friendships, and her comfort with silence create some beautiful cinematic tales.

Cancion son un nombre#8 – SONG WITHOUT A NAME – Late 80’s Peru, on the precipice of being overwhelmed by terrorism by a group called The Shining Path. First-time feature director and co-writer Melina León paints a portrait of life in both the City, and the outskirts where the indigenous communities live in poverty. She focuses on one young woman, Georgina, who is about to give birth, but is too poor to cover the costs of the clinic. When she hears an ad on the radio of a clinic helping people avoid these costs, she takes the opportunity. Unfortunately, she becomes part of a growing newborn kidnapping movement, and as a poor, migrant woman, she is ignored by both the police and the judicial system. Her only hope is an eager young reporter who is assigned to dig into her story and uncover the truth, even while he is concealing his own truth that could put his life at risk. This grim story is told with powerful visuals the both highlight and counter the harsh life that Georgina faces.

Cat in the Wall#9 – CAT IN THE WALL – Illustrating both the strong bonds of family, and the gritty, harsh reality of current day life for some in London, CAT IN THE WALL follows a family of Bulgarian immigrants whose lives are thrown into disarray when a conflict with their neighbors over a cat escalates. This artfully written film that feels like improv, but must surely be carefully scripted, gives us a look into a housing development with a mix of residents, and a decision made to renovate the windows despite none of the tenants asking for it. The cost is borne by those who have long-term leases, and lead character Irina, struggling to find work as an architect but making ends meet working in a pub, tries to rally her fellow tenants in protest. Meanwhile, her conflict with her neighbors around the cat, puts her entire family in jeopardy.

Kajillionaire#10 – KAJILLIONAIRE – Miranda July is consistent with her quirky characters that deliver powerfully moving messages from both her debut, ME AND YOU AND EVERYONE WE KNOW, and its follow-up, THE FUTURE. In KAJILLIONAIRE, she steps out of the performance aspect of the film sticking to the writing and directing, but allows Evan Rachel Wood to bring to life an amazingly strange, yet wonderful character in Old Dolio, daughter of an aging couple who decades ago stepped away from capitalist society to live a life off the grid, making their ways through cons and grifts. It’s amazing how July can weave such odd and off-putting characters into a narrative that not only reveals, but redeems them with heart and soul.

Best Movies of 2020 – Part 2

So many great movies were released in 2020 that I had to create a Top 40! I already posted #’s 21 – 40… here are #’s 11 – 20, and I’ll finish up with the Top 10 soon.

The Vast of Night#11 – THE VAST OF NIGHT – After reading a rave review from a fellow Chlotrudis member, Brett, I was mightily intrigued to see this film. Essentially a radio play in consummate 1950’s style, with remarkable visuals added (the cinematography is astounding), each element of Andrew Patterson’s film is sheer perfection. The scattershot dialog, the long opening tracking shot through the gym, the parking lot and down the street, the intimacy of the telephone operator’s office, to the glorious final moments of the film. In any other year, this would have been Top 5!

To the Ends of the Earth#12 – TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH – Yoko is the host of a popular Japanese travel show. While filming at various cultural landmarks in Uzbekistan, we see Yoko shooting hip deep in a lake supposedly filled with large, mysterious fish, repeatedly riding a nausea-inducing, carnival ride, and eating not quite cooked food at a local eatery. On camera, she does this all with a smile and a perky, upbeat demeanor, but off-camera, Yoko is brooding and withdrawn, missing her boyfriend in Japan, and putting up with her dismissive, male director and cameramen. Director Kiyoshi Kurosawa is known for his more chilling, horror-themed films, and he uses some of those talents to highlight Yoko’s isolation and fear at being a woman alone in a foreign city. Beautifully understated with some striking moments of musical magic.

Mouthpiece#13 – MOUTHPIECE – A marvelous return to form from Patricia Rozema, who adapts a uniquely challenging play bringing all her strengths to bear: a feminist perspective, an intellectual analysis, and an emotional heart. It helps that the playwrights, and lead actresses from the play also star in the film. Having two people play a single character, representing her different aspects is greatly aided by the pair that have lived in her skin for so long. Another beautiful analysis of the affects of grief, and another film with startling moments of musical magic.

House of Hummingbird#14 – HOUSE OF HUMMINGBIRD – Despite its roots in actual events (the film feels very autobiographical) the central coming-of-age focus makes it less historical and more personal. 14-year old Eun-hee is searching to find her place in the world as she enters into that adolescent period were every decision seems both completely irrelevant and life-changing at the same time. Her family is caught up in the middle-class struggle to improve. Casual neglect, abuse by her brother, misunderstandings in adolescent love, and a tragedy involving a true historical event add up to make writer/director Bora Kim’s narrative film debut something really special.

Monsoon#15 – MONSOON – Kit returns to his birthplace in Saigon after fleeing post-war Vietnam over thirty years ago with his parents. Nothing seems the same, as he struggles with his heritage. Hong Khaou’s film is another story about grief that resonated with me strongly given my mothers Filipino heritage. She never went back after coming the America after World War II, and now I feel if I visited, it wouldn’t be the place she knew. Henry Golding does a great job as Kit, and the opening scene contains some spectacular imagery that inspires both calm and tension. A later scene that depicts a family harvesting lotus flowers for tea is similarly outstanding.

Beanpole#16 – BEANPOLE – The setting is post World War II Leningrad, and when we’re watching a Russian film after World War II, you can count in it being pretty grim. The central characters are Iya and Masha, two young women who experienced the war first-hand. Iya, toweringly tall and eerily pale, fought on the front lines until a concussion sent her back to the City where she now serves as a nurse tending men, many of whom have had their lives permanently shattered. She’s also taking care of a young, preternaturally cute toddler. Problem is, her concussion also sends her spiraling periodically into numbing fugue states where her body seizes and she becomes unaware of what’s going on around her. One such moment, early in the film, sets the devastating tone for much of the rest of the film especially after Masha returns.

The Truth#17 – THE TRUTH – In a normal year, Hirokazu Koreeda’s English language debut would be in the Top 5, but the competition is fierce this year. Koreeda goes to France and assembles an international cast including Catherine Deneuve, Juliette Binoche, and Ethan Hawke, but sticks close to his favorite theme of family. In this case it’s the strained relationship between a mother, Fabienne, star of French cinema, and a daughter, Lumir, a screenwriter, now living in New York with her husband and daughter. You see, Fabienne has just published her memoirs which has caused some additional friction in the relationship. She’s also starring in new science fiction film where her own mother never grows old, unearthing her own insecurities about aging and her relationship with her own daughter. Another triumph for the master!

The Nest#18 – THE NEST – Sean Durkin (MARTHA, MARCY MAE, MARLENE) has created a simmering drama modeled on the classic haunted house horror story, but where the supernatural element that is haunting the unfortunate family within is represented by wealth. THE NEST tells the story of a family that is falling apart due to the pressures and excesses of the late 1980’s culture. Led by outstanding performances by the always exciting Carrie Coon, and a surprisingly mature Jude Law. This one stuck with me and my appreciation of it grew with the passage of time.

Ham On Rye#19 – HAM ON RYE – High School children from all across town ritualistically prepare for a big event then travel in small groups to a common destination. Is it prom? It’s hard to tell, but when the destination appears, the town deli, and the rituals continue, from everyone touching the entryway sign as they arrive, or the amusing dance sequences, we understand there’s something else going on. For anyone who has ever grown up… which is pretty much all of us, this surreal and beautifully shot film is for you. Writer/director Tylor Taormina’s feature debut makes its mark boldly and beautifully.

She Dies Tomorrow#20 – SHE DIES TOMORROW – A fascinating premise reveals a psychological malady spreading from person to person that causes them to believe with certainty that they will die tomorrow. Actress Amy Seimetz wrote and directed this film after going through a bout with severe depression, and she captures the isolation and foreboding perfectly. What makes this film so fascinating is how each person so afflicted responds quite differently. Jane Adams is that standout in a quirky but realistic supporting role.

Best Movies of 2020

Perhaps it’s due to the pandemic and quarantine that are forcing people to stay home, but it sure seems like there are way more really great movies that were released in 2020 than usual. I think streaming services were picking up everything they could to give people enough to see while stick at home. Regardless the cause, I ended up seeing a slew of really great movies and I’ve ranked my Top 40 for you here. I will start with #’s 21 – 40, and only films that were eligible for Chlotrudis consideration this year, so while some of these films might have a date of 2019, or even 2018 on it, they were technically “released” in 2020. (I also saw some great festival films that won’t be technically “released” until 2021 and will appear on next year’s list, I suspect.

Bull#21 – BULL – Annie Silverstein’s sobering coming-of-age tale of a high-school girl living in a West Houston subdivision, whose mother is incarcerated, and falls in with a crowd selling drugs to overcome poverty. Fortunately, she runs afoul of, and eventually becomes friends with, her neighbor, a former black rodeo rider who is facing retirement. Rob Morgan and Amber Harvard give natural, winning performances as the two leads, and Sara Allbright is fantastic as the imprisoned mom.

Black Bear#22 – BLACK BEAR – Aubrey Plaza owns this fascinating and intense film that also shows off the talents of her co-star Christopher Abbott. Two tales in one, actually, where the cast plays two entirely different sets of characters in the same space. The first sees a writer take some time at a remote home that a young couple are renting out AIRBnB-style, as tensions build between the three, a wandering bear emerges from the forest. The second half shows the grueling shooting of a final scene of a film, where the director manipulates the lead actress to get the performance he wants.

The Planters#23 – THE PLANTERS – Written, directed, and starring Alexandra Kotcheff andHannah Leder, with a heaping teaspoonful of Wes Anderson stirred in, THE PLANTERS is a quirky, somber tale that features daring production design and cinematography that highlights the unusual actions of the characters. While some may find this film to be a bit twee, I adored Kotcheff’s character, Martha Plant, adopted by older adults who have since died, living alone in the desert of California, telemarketing for an air conditioning company, and “planting” gifts she shoplifts from the general store, then leaving coordinates on a public bulletin board where someone finds them and leaves her some money in exchange. When she stumbles upon a young woman (Leder) struggling with Multiple personality Disorder, who has a fixation with Catholicism, her life is forever changed.

Ghost Tropic#24 – GHOST TROPIC – Dreamy and somnambulistic, directed by Bas Devos in Brussels, this film follows Khadija (a sublime Saadia Bentaïeb) on an overnight journey through her city. When Khadija falls asleep on the bus after her long shift cleaning an office building, she wakes find herself at the end of the line with no more buses running that night. She has no choice but to make the long walk home as she doesn’t have the money for a cab. Along the way she encounters the denizens of Brussels’ late night, including a security guard, a dogwalker, a homeless man and his dog, a convenient store clerk, and her daughter. A lovely and poignant commentary on an immigrant’s look at a changing city.

I'm No Longer Here#25 – I’M NO LONGER HERE – Daniel Garcia is terrific in his first film role as Ulises, leader of a a young street gang in Mexico that spends their days dancing to slowed-down cumbia and building a bit of a following, until a mix-up with a local cartel, forces him to migrate to the U.S. Ending up in Brooklyn, Ulises finds it nearly impossible with his extremely limited English to find his place in the USA, even with the help of a high school girl who has a crush on him. The wonderful dance sequences lift the film which could have been remorselessly grim. Nice work from wrtier/director Fernando Frias.

Red, White and Blue#26 – RED, WHITE AND BLUE – Director Steve McQueen did something amazing in 2020, he released a British miniseries made up of 5 feature films chronicling the bigotry faced by West Indian immigrants to London from the 1960’s – the 1980’s. This third installment tells the true story of Leroy Logan, who decides to try to affect change internally by becoming a London police officer after his father is unfairly and brutally arrested for no reason. John Boyega is outstanding as Leroy, and Steve Toussaint give him strong back-up as his father. Really powerful stuff here.

Shithouse#27 – SHITHOUSE – If had told me a year ago that there would be a film in my Top 40 that focused on a freshman in college struggling to adapt to the constant partying atmosphere, the girl who dissed him, and the roommate he hated, and it was called SHITHOUSE, i would have laughed in your face. But writer/director/star Cooper Raiff has created a film about, what no doubt many kids going to college experience, missing their families, feeling friendless and adrift, and struggling to adapt to a College lifestyle. I only watched it because it features past Chlotrudis Breakout Award winner and guest, Logan Miller as the hated roommate, but I’m sure glad I did.

Fishbowl#28 – FISHBOWL – Small-town America can be difficult when you become the center of attention, and when three sisters lose their mother in a car accident, and their father grows increasingly obsessed with the Rapture that he thinks is forthcoming, they must cling together to get through their own traumas if they want to emerge whole on the other side. This was one of the many wonderful films I saw this year about dealing with grief. Brother and sister directing team Alexa Kinigopoulos and Stephen Kinigopoulos bring a hazy atmosphere similar to Sofia Coppola’s THE VIRGIN SUICIDES that enhances the eerie tale.

The Twentieth Century#29 – THE TWENTIETH CENTURY – Borrowing heavily from Guy Maddin, both in temperament and style, writer/director Matthew Rankin tackles Canadian history in a way that is outlandishly outrageous, and skewers Canada’s perceived good manner in a beautiful fantasia satire. Dan Beirne plays Prime Minister-wannabe, Mackenzie King, who must compete against other candidates for the position in absurd contests, all while keeping his own dark fetish — huffing women’s shoes — firmly in secret. While his mothe has had a premonition of the woman he will marry, a young nurse played perfectly by Sarianne Cormier throws everything-off kilter by catching Mackenzie’s attention. All this and an orgasming cactus!

Farewell Amor#30 – FAREWELL AMOR – Relationships are hard enough without 17-years apart to put a wrinkle in things. Walter gets out of Angola as a refugee after enduring trauma and hardship during the war, and then immediately begins looking for a way to bring his wife and newborn daughter to New York City to join him. That efforts takes 17 years to see fruition, and he faces a wife converted to devout born-again status, and a daughter he has basically never met, all while ending a relationship with a woman that he had fallen in love with. Writer/director Ekwa Msangi tells this powerful story gently yet without holding back, refraining from placing blame on anyone and instead detailing the harsh realities faced by immigrants.

Miss Juneteenth#31 – MISS JUNETEENTH – With hints of MISS FIRECRACKER and THE NEW YEAR PARADE, both films from past years that I have loved, MISS JUNETEENTH is about someone pinning a whole lots of hopes and dreams on an outdated tradition that they once succeeded with on someone else who may or may not want those same things. Turquoise won the Miss Juneteenth pageant back in her day, and got the chance for a scholarship to any black college of her choice. Something happened, which we’re never quite sure of, and she missed out on that chance. Now she wants the same for her teenaged daughter, right down to having her win using the same poem that Turquoise recited to win. It’s a beautiful and powerful look at missed opportunities, and wanting what you think is best for your child without stopping to ask.

Saint Frances#32 – SAINT FRANCES – Can you come of age in your thirties? That’s what this film is all about, as Bridget, adrift and aimless comes to terms with her life and moves forward in this beautifully structured film that sees women talking about subjects they don’t usually talk about… or at least that they don’t make films about. Bridget meets a guy at a party, they have sex, and she has an abortion, just as she’s takes a job as a nanny for a young girl parented by two women who have just welcomed a new baby into the home. As Bridget becomes friends with her new charge, Frances, she learns some lessons about life that don’t come easy, nor do they seem packaged for a movie. Lovely writing and directorial work.

Coded Bias#33 – CODED BIAS – This film couldn’t have been released at a better time as it explores the problematic uses and misuses of facial recognition, applied algorithms, artificial intelligence, and bias. But best of all it introduced me to Joy Buolamwini, a graduate student who discovers that facial recognition doesn’t work that well on black faces while developing a project at the MIT Media Lab. From there, Joy goes on to become a founder of the Algorithmic Justice League, a movement towards equitable and accountable AI. What a phenomenal woman, and what a well-crafted, illuminating documentary. 

Fire Will Come#34 – FIRE WILL COME – While the inevitable fire provides some rather compelling filmmaking, it’s the first half of FIRE WILL COME that captivated me. Not a whole lot happens, a man, imprisoned for a couple of years for allegedly starting a fire that burnt down much of the forest, and part of the village where the film takes place, returns to live with his mother for a while. Together they sit out by the forest and discuss the invasive eucalyptus trees, tend to their cows, shelter in giant tree trunks from the rain, and maybe flirt a little with the local vet. It’s a quiet look at life and perhaps trying to earn a little redemption. Sadly that inevitable fire disrupts everything. I would be remiss if I didn’t mention one of the most visually spectacular and surreal opening scenes of massive conifers toppling in silence before some massive beast.

Guest of Honour#35 – GUEST OF HONOUR – In a step back to a return to form, Atom Egoyan explores familiar themes as a father and daughter explore hidden truths kept secret to gain a better understanding of each other. David Thewlis is terrific as a restaurant inspector who can shut down even the most popular restaurants with the flourish of his pen. His relationship with his daughter, a music teacher, is challenging at best, especially after the passing of his wife. When his daughter is imprisoned for sexual assault on a student, which she did not due, but insists on serving, the mysteries deepen. It’s Atom’s strongest film since CHLOE for sure.

Lovers Rock#36 – LOVERS ROCK – In the opening film of Steve McQueen’s Small Axe series, we see a late 60’s community of Jamaicans who gather together for a house party for some delicious food, communal dancing, and some loving, and somehow it’s also a political act. The music and motion are hypnotic, and McQueen creates a visual and aural experience that really feels like immersive theater. First time feature actress, Amarah-Jae St. Aubyn, is a wonderful protagonist to lead us through the various challenges faced by a West Indian woman in late 60’s London.

The Forty-Year-Old Version#37 – THE FORTY YEAR OLD VERSION – This terrific film written, directed, and starring Radha Blank, is worth it just to spend time listening to its creators unique and hilarious voice. After being voted one of New York’s 30 Under 30, she has spent the next ten years as a playwright with nothing to show for it in terms of productions. Radha is desperate for a breakthrough before 40 so she reinvents herself as rapper RadhaMUSPrime where she meets Beats-maker D. Before she can fully realize her potential as a rapper, she gets sucked into a potential production of one of her plays that promises a Broadway debut, but she might have to sell her soul to get it. Will she? This one is a lot of fun.

Babyteeth#38 – BABYTEETH – Based on successful Australian stage play, director Shannon Murphy has created a fully-realized film version that sees a young girl who is terminally ill, fall in love with a drug dealer, much to the consternation of her parents, who want only to give her everything she wants during her all-too brief life. Milla, played by Elizabeth Scanlen, has a strong voice and as is often the case in Australian movies, is surrounded by a quirky pack of supporting characters, from her mother, addicted to prescription drugs, and her therapist father, who numbers his own wife as one of his patients, to the young man who she falls for despite the fact that their introduction was just a con he was playing to make some quick bucks. BABYTEETH avoids sentimentality with a sharp script and strong performances.

Dating Amber#39 – DATING AMBER – Charming Irish film about a gay lad and a lesbian who decide to start dating to keep their mates off their backs. Despite 17-year-old Eddie’s plan to follow his Dad’s footsteps into the Irish army — in part to persuade himself of his masculinity, and in part because there aren’t a lot of alternatives in his little Irish village of a hometown when you can’t even admit to yourself that you’re gay. Amber, on the other hand, is just biding time to get past the sorrowful looks of her neighbors and the caring yet restricting grip of her Mom, after the sudden death of her Dad. The leads are so appealing, and the script strong enough that we are really rooting for these kids, not only to sort out their own relationship, but to make it past their difficult adolescences and come into their own.

A White, White Day#40 – A WHITE, WHITE DAY – Another strong entry into the serious, not-quirky Icelandic dramas. Ingimundur is devastated by the death of his wife and loses himself into a surly funk that is only broken by his beloved granddaughter Salka. Ingimundur deals with his grief by not dealing with it, a classic male response, burying his emotions so deep that when the erupt, you know it’s going to be explosive. When he discovers that his wife might have been having an affair before she died, he finds a target for his rage. Ingvar Sigurdsson is powerfully convincing as Ingimunudr, portraying a loving grandfather, a former police officer, a vengeful, wronged-husband, and a man incapable of expressing the grief that tears him up inside. Young Ída Mekkín Hlynsdóttir does a great job as Salka as well, clearly devoted to her grandfather, but worried about him as well, and dealing with her own grief. It’s their relationship that forms the core of the film, and it is presented as unshakable as granite, weathering even the harshest climate.

Michael’s Top Books Read in 2020, #’s 2 & 1!

Perhaps it’s a little unfair to N. K. Jemisin to rank her #2 behind Octavia Butler’s Parable of the Sower. After all, It’s my second reading of Parable, and The Obelisk Gate is the second installment of a trilogy, which is always a bit of a handicap by not being the beginning or the end of the story. Still, the first part of Jemisin’s trilogy, The Fifth Season was my top book read n 2019 so, she’s doing pretty good here. And honestly, if anyone is going to best her, it may as well be Octavia Butler, whose books inspired Jemisin to be the amazing writer she has become.

The Obelisk Gate#2 – The Obelisk Gate by N. K. Jemisin

The Obelisk Gate is part two of The Shattered Earth Trilogy, and with uncanny imagination and detailed knowledge, author N.K. Jemisin continues to build a world that is complex, wondrous and unforgiving. The story picks up pretty much where the riveting first part (The Fifth Season) ended: Essun has discovered a hidden underground society, the world’s ecosystem is collapsing because of the actions of her one time teacher and lover, Alabaster Tenring. Essun is still desperate to find her daughter, Nassun, who had been spirited away by her former husband after he had murdered their son. What Essun doesn’t realize is that Nsasun has become involved with Schaffa, the Guardian who almost killed Essun (more than once) in the name of protection.

The storyline is complicated, but that’s what makes it so compelling, along with the strong-willed assortment of fascinating characters that populate this world. With the literal destruction of the planet on the line, and immense power being bandied about by individuals, the stakes are high. And what about the mysterious Stone Eaters? Will they help humanity or destroy it?

Jemisin’s imagination seems boundless, and her writing is top notch. Detailed and emotional, yet infused with an urgency that propels the reader ever onward. Here we are a year later, and I have just started the third and final part of the trilogy. Perhaps we’ll see The Fifth Season on 2021’s list of Best Books Read? I suspect so.

Parable of the Sower#1 – The Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler

Twenty-seven years after it was first published (and I first read it), but only five years away from the start of the narrative, Octavia Butler’s Parable of the Sower is more prescient and more frightening than ever. In this dystopian future, society as we know it has succumbed to violence, corruption, and the disintegration of community, as the trajectory of the human race advances to its sadly inevitable collapse. Laws are ignored, or enforced by a corrupt and violent police force, and humanity either live in poorly-secured, walled enclaves, tightly-controlled, violent cities where slavery has re-emerged, or riskiest of all, out in the wilderness, where the weak are preyed upon by the desperate.

Lauren is a teenager living in a small, walled community in California. Her father is the local preacher, and her mother teaches the handful of children in the community. Her younger brothers are wild and reckless. Yet Lauren possesses a maturity and wisdom that set her up as different from the start. For one thing, she is a sharer, afflicted with a condition that forces her to feel the pain of others around her if she witnesses them. This can be a disability if she is trying to defend herself from predatory aggressors, but Lauren is prepared. She knows that the time will come when the encroaching dangers will overrun her community and she carefully plans her escape.

Despite the intellectual rejection of religion, even her father’s, Lauren applies her intelligence and her thoughtfulness in the creation of a new religion, one that espouses God as Change, and she calls it Earthseed. When the inevitable happens, and Lauren’s community is overrun, Lauren finds herself fleeing for her life with other refugees – wandering the dangerous, largely abandoned roads to head north, where there is a belief the life might be better. Along the way, Lauren finds other essential decent people among the cast-offs, and all the while, quietly and reasonably shares the philosophy of Earthseed. Can Lauren create a movement that will help set humanity back on a redemptive path? Or will this tiny, emerging movement be crushed by the inevitable crush of chaos.

Now as an adult, with years of life experience, Parable of the Sower resonates with me so much more. Butler’s uncanny way of seeing a possible and plausible outcome of the trajectory of present-day society (even back in the early 90’s) is frightening, as this violent, self-destructive society, where racism, addiction, environmental collapse, corruption and violence have become the norm to the extreme.. There are so few dots to connect to see our own world becoming Lauren’s. Butler’s novel is a classic, and I’m looking forward to rereading the sequel, Parable of the Talents.

Fish Girl I also want to call out three graphic novels, and one play that I read this year that stood out above the rest. After thoroughly enjoying the network television show, I had to go back and read Greg Rucka Matthew Southworth’s Stumptown, Vol. 1: The Case of the Girl Who Took Her Shampoo and was reminded what a great writer Rucka is. Also thoroughly enjoyed the magical fantasy by David Wiesner and Donna Jo Napoli, Fish Girl. Finally, G. Willow Wilson and Christian Ward’s intricate and fascinating world-building tale, The Invisible Kingdom, Vol. 1: Walking the Path is definitely setting me up for wanting more. The play that most impressed me out of the dozen or so I read in 2020 was one of Ken Urban’s early efforts, published in 2014, The Private Lives of Eskimos. It’s a play I hope to direct when the world settles down a bit, a provocative allegory for grief, isolation, and an overabundance of information.

Finally two disappointments (only two? that’s not bad…) from the books I read last year. Neal Stephenson’s self-indulgent Fall, or Dodge in Hell, took a fascinating premise, having not only your brain, but essentially your soul, digitized and transferred into a digital world after death, and then wrote about it from every possible angle he could think of until he had filled nearly 900 pages. If Stephenson was a more elegant writer (say, like Patricia A. McKillip) I might have loved this, but unfortunately, it was a bit of a slog to get through, unlike the similarly lengthy The Rise and Fall of D.O.D.O. which I quite enjoyed. Perhaps his co-writer Nicole Galland helped out in that case. The other major disappointment for me was a musical biography by Gordon Deppe, Spoonfed: My Life with the Spoons. Some of you 80’s aficionados may recall the Canadian band the Spoons from their indie-hit, “Nova Heart.” I was a big fan of The Spoons, and Gordon Deppe in particular, but a good musician and songwriter does not a good memoir writer make.

And just to recap, here is the list of the best books I read in 2020.

  1. Parable of the Sower by Octavia Butler
  2. The Obelisk Gate by N. K. Jemisin
  3. Get Tusked: The Inside Story of Fleetwood Mac’s Most Anticipated Album by Ken Caillat & Hernan Rojas
  4. How Beautiful We Were by Imbolo Mbue
  5. Perestroika in Paris by Jane Smiley
  6. Utopia Avenue by David Mitchell
  7. What Happens at Night by Peter Cameron
  8. The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet by Becky Chambers
  9. Blackfish City by Sam J. Miller
  10. Or What You Will by Jo Walton
  11. Swimming in the Dark by Tomasz Jedrowski
  12. Hammered by Elizabeth Bear